So much to do, so little time to do it

I don’t mean to be so late with updating this thing but as usual, I’m busy as hades with no signs of it letting up any time soon.

For one, I’m trying to spend some time each day on my writing (I promised myself that I would work on this book in this new place and so far, so good). Two I’m also trying to find a good program to use for editing my HD footage so I can upload some movies to YouTube. Three I’m trying to bring some order to this new place of mine yet knowing I need to buy some more furniture to do so and while im doing all of that I’m also looking after my son and holding down a full time job.

I must admit, I am getting better at doing more stuff in each day though and I haven’t felt this motivated and happy in ages but I do need to rest alot more than I’ve been allowing myself. I’m only human after all. So on that note, I’m going to laze around on the couch, stretch my legs out on the chaise, watch a comedy (probably old reruns of ‘The Nanny’ because I love the dry humour in that show) and have myself an afternoon snack which I haven’t quite decided upon.

First things first though, I have to wrestle the couch from my son who has planted himself in my favourite spot, whilst he plays his DSi. Maybe I should invest in some kind of comfy chair for his own room in the near future…

A new place, a new direction

I need a decent video editing program for my HD camera. I have all these movies on Rapunzel’s (my laptop) hard drive and all these ideas on how I wish to put them all together but it is pretty pointless using all that time making movies when the program I currently use doesn’t do ones in HD. Thanks alot Windows for depriving all us ordinary Vista users.  I guess I’ll have to use some of my free time this weekend to download some trial programs and decide on something that will suit my needs though I wish I just had the best program right now whilst these ideas are ripe in my brain.

Ahh good ole work tomorrow and pay day too boot!

Not that I will see much of it this week due to all the extra bills coming in and ones I wish to get ahead on. All in the fun process of moving into a new place I guess. The good thing is that I have settled in here quite well. I’m enjoying the space for all my stuff, the huge wardrobe for all my clothes and getting to hang out with ppl I don’t normally get to see too often. I had my first actual visitor today in fact and although she didn’t stay long (due to an overly possessive husband which is a story in itself) it was nice to be in the city so someone could so easily drop around.

The other bonus was getting to go to the local car show over the weekend and getting some new video footage. After watching the footage however I’ve come to realise that I need to work alot more on my technique (by standing back a little more and working the camera slowly and not being afraid of looking like tourist in public) but I can still work with the footage I took so the day wasn’t a total loss. I’ll take it down as experience.

Eavesdropping

Either one of my new neighbours is in the middle of a domestic  or some couple, taking a leisurely walk down the street, is having a yelling match as they pass by.

I’m definately not nosey enough to find out but it’s hard not to miss the screaming that sprung out of nowhere through my window.

Definately didn’t hear much of this in the country.

Moving in, settling in

Once I am more settled in this new place (and I have some spare cash in my hands) I’m definately going to get my own domain name. WordPress is okay but somewhat limited in what your allowed to edit and I’m all over diaryland too. Too many unfond memories there. It’s time I made some new ones. Some brilliant ones in fact and  I need my own place on the web (instead of all this moving around) to achieve some of this. However I’m trying to get my credit card back down to a decent limit as well as save some cash for some future holiday plans … so the domain name is on the backburner. I still haven’t decided on a name yet so it’s no biggie.

This weekend should be a blast. There’s a car show on in town and I’m taking my video camera along for the ride. I have so many videos now that I need to edit and upload them (once I have this new place sorted instead of living out of boxes) and I’m looking forward to show casing some of the interesting things happening here that I hardly seem to talk about (mainly due to me having less time on my hands and what little time i have is spent not at home). Sunday I’m going to try and stay home in the morning and get this house in order and in the afternoon I think I might take Zac for a drive down to the beach. It’s definately becoming beach weather now (which is nice because I’ve had enough of Winter) and I plan on making the most of it.

This move has been really good for me and good for Zac even if some of it hasn’t gone according to plan.

Patience is a virtue

I’m kinda still waiting for the real estate to get back to me about that place that I’m already half in love with. They are having a little trouble reaching the family members through the numbers I left on the application form. Trust my brothers to find this particular time to not answer their phones or return calls when people leave messages. Pfft. I’m hoping this will not effect my application and that all my positives (steady job, good income, good rental history) will outweigh all the things going against me (emergency contacts, having trouble getting in contact with my personel references..). Yeah. It really bites when something like this depends on other people and it’s not like I can choose what family members I put on my application.

Anyway I’m remaining positive that the real estate will contact me tomorrow and they will give me the good news that the place is being offered to me and I’ll of course take it. 

It’s the only immediate goal I have right now.

Definately a winner

Upon arrival at the unit, I noticed that there was a cleaning mob parked in the driveway so after checking my watch again for the 50th time I noted that the Property Manager was indeed late and so figured it would cause no harm to have a small peak at the residence, courtesy of the cleaning crew.

 I now really, REALLY want to move there.

It has everything i want – space, modern kitchen, modern bathroom, built in in the bedrooms, a bit of a back yard, short walk to the school for my son - and now I’m keeping my fingers crossed that my application will pass and that they will give me the go ahead to move on in because I can see that place being a home to me and I can see friends popping in for a visit and I can see Zac enjoying making friends with the kids in the neighbourhood. Sure it’s located on a very busy road but you don’t hear much of that noise once you are inside the residence – a lovely feature about brick homes – and besides the neighbourhood actually seems really, really quiet.

So I’ve submitted my application, am going to suck up to my boss tomorrow to let him know I put him down as a personal reference (I needed some brownie points because there was another person looking at the unit and I want them to pick ME and not him) and will keep my fingers - hands, legs and anything available – crossed that I will get a yes from the owners.

I have the funds available to move whenever so it’s all just a waiting game now.

More than a place, I want a home

I’ve thought it over night and the thing is, I really don’t want to just settle on any place to live in. To tell the truth I want to find a place that feels exactly like home. And that place I looked at on Monday afternoon, did not feel like home. In fact it was like a blank canvas that had no promise of a pretty picture.

So after running the idea through my head all day (and mulling over the cons of the place I looked at Monday) I finally came to the conclusion that I will just have to find something else more suitable. Somewhere I feel comfortable. Somewhere I feel I can invite people over and not be ashamed of the surroundings. And I found a place, same price in fact, but with more features and benefits AND near the school my son attends. What luck!

Now fingers crossed no one else goes to see it before me because I really think that it is the place I will be living in for the next 12 months… It just has to be..

Not completely sold on it but it will do

I had a look at the place today. The one which i mentioned previously.

It’s in a good area, the neighbourhood is quiet and I’ve seen children who attend my son’s school but I’m not completely sold with it. I’ve put my name down with it however, because I need a basis to start from at least and I need to move asap.  It’s getting a little crowded here with all these boxes starting to pile up. Well there’s that and the fact that living with an Ex is not without its drama’s.

It’s incredibly painful (emotionally)  to live with one’s ex-lover. It’s not made any easier by the fact that we still work together and we still talk every day. I think this is why it is so much easier dealing with a break up that involves a clean break. You move out, or he does, and you simply move on in two different directions without either one knowing what the other one is doing until all wounds have healed and closed over. Then maybe prehaps you can form a semblance of a friendship, or not.

Either way, us living under the same roof, is not at all healthy. It’s like prodding at fresh cut. So I need to remove myself asap and if that means I have to move to a place which doesn’t completely have me sold, then so be it.

As to the other thing that is currently bothering me .. I simply don’t know what to do about that right now. All i know is that it hurts.

My pain feels insignificant however.

Packing, overthinking and over analysising

I must get more sleep tonight. Obviously my eyes cannot cope with a mere seven hours a night because they are dry and a little blood shot. I swear people at work must think I am doing drugs as they are giving me too many looks of concern and it’s annoying me.

More sleep, less computer is what I need.

Unfortunately I am addicted to technology.

I’m still packing at every chance that I get these days. I’ve applied for one place but I still haven’t heard back from the real estate so I can actually get a look inside before the current tenants lease is up. They obviously won’t let you get the place unless you get to look at it first so I’m hoping tomorrow they will call and give me the go ahead (fingers crossed) and I can start moving for real. I think I need that kind of goal to aim for right now.

Although I am looking forward to moving into a new home in one respect, I’m not at all looking forward to the prospect of going back to renting. I have been paying off my own home for the past 2 and a half years and by moving back to the city and renting another home, it’s almost like I am failing instead of succeeding. Have I wasted all that time or did anything good come of it? I have to keep reminding myself that this is only a minor step backward, I have a giant leap to take in the next year or so that will more than make up for this but right now, right at this time, I am hugely depressed about it. I’m trying not to think about it and instead am immersing myself in all those things that make me happy like visiting friends, hanging out, shopping and creating stuff on the computer. I really need to keep a positive attitude or I’m going to go crazy.

Well I do need to rest more and this is getting me no where near that goal at this time. Nite, nite.

Take me back ..

I miss being in America.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m an Australian – through and through - but there was some wonderful things that I saw in America when I was over there - some wonderful place I got to visit, some interesting people who’s paths I crossed - and I really would like to go back for another holiday - and when I say holiday, I do mean holiday - so I can see some of the sights (and more) all over again.